Been Down and Out; Something’s Got to Give

This is not good. I have not been doing well lately. And yes, it’s all because of brother-in-law still being here. It’s been just “one more” week for too many weeks now. I need my home back. I need my life back. I need my routine back. My wife feels the same way. This is not good!

I have not been writing as much or as well as I can. I am depressed. I am feeling depressed. I know I am depressed. I may need mental health help in a bit. I think I will be fine after brother in law leaves. That should be soon, but I am not getting my hopes up. I have never felt like this before. And I have been doing better in the past week or so than I was before. I know it will get better. At this stage in my life I don’t need this. I need to be happy and have good things happen to me.

It’s terrible all around. There’s no privacy. There’s no money. Someone has to feed brother-in-law. He eats and drinks a lot. We are already raising his daughter. My retirement place in the Hill ‘Country gets further away each day the guys stays here. This is not good. I don’t know what else to say and do except to ride out the storm. It will be fine. I just need to do what is right and good.

I made a promise to myself to write several funny stories during the coming week. I can do that and it will pick me up. I am going to make sure I start to be more postive and upbeat about things. I am also not going to stress that there is no ice in the icemaker in my icebox because brother-in-law drinks 16 Dr. Pepper’s each day. Ok, that’s all of that. I just need to vent.

I will try to write better stuff and stay on top of things. It will get back to normal and I will be allright. Enough said. More later!!